Seasons Change & So Do Hearts

There I was. A mother of two children, ages 7 & 10. I was pursuing my career in the newspaper field and the blogging world. I could spend time getting ready in the morning after my children went to school. I’d take plus size fashion photos and spoke about body positivity passionately!!!

And on September 23, it seemed like my life completely changed.

Not only have I gone from a mother of two older children to mothering 5 children, the youngest being 2 but my zeal for body acceptance died on a cross.

Concerning the BoPo movement, God brought it all to a STOP, abruptly.

Even though I still stand by what I said when dealing with appearance, God started to talk to me about my obsession with SELF. My size and physical beauty is not important when it comes to Kingdom matters and I truly felt the Spirit telling me to turn from the body positive talk to digging into the Word about what it means to be a Godly Woman.

Instead of following women like Ashley Graham, my attention turned towards women like Elisabeth Elliot.

“I am more than my measurements. The cycle of body-shaming needs to end. I’m over it… My body is MY body. I’ll call the shots.”
Ashley Graham

“I have one desire now – to live a life of reckless abandon for the Lord, putting all my energy and strength into it.” -Elisabeth Elliot

Instead of defending if Christian Women can be sexy…

I want to promote Christian Women being Holy.

And instead of waking up and focusing on featuring my body’s shape, I dress more practical while still dressing in style…most days.

This is me today.

It’s incredible to see how seeking God and practicing obedience can change you, inside and out!

I feel like such a different woman.

You’d think that my life would be more chaotic now that we went from 4 to 7 + a puppy but it’s not.

I mean, don’t get me wrong, it’s crazy, lol, but it’s joyful. It’s blessings. It’s peaceful in the ways that matter.

Our home has stayed cleaner with 7 than it ever did with 4. Basically because we just feel forced to keep it up daily. One day of not doing the dishes can really cause an annoyance the next day. So, we do them. We get the laundry done. We clean up. We sit at the table for every meal at home now because I want that quiet time to hear my children’s hearts and thoughts.

Life has become more intentional.

I prayed about being a better mother to my two girls and He has strengthened me in this area by bringing more kiddos in. Go figure, right!?

It’s just cool to see where God will take you if you let Him.

All the clothes and brand deals for plus/size fashion do not compare to the blessing of trading that all in for a deeper beauty in Christ. And I’m not saying you couldn’t do and have both but right now that’s not where I’m being led.

“To be a follower of the Crucified means, sooner or later, a personal encounter with the cross. And the cross always entails loss.” -Elisabeth Elliot


Have you ever gone through a “dramatic” life/spiritual change? Tell me about it.

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